Endo & Me…


I’d like to begin with a little disclaimer. I’m certainly no doctor or medical expert. I’m writing this blog post from the heart, from my experience as a female, wife, friend, Mother, Endo Warrior. 

Endo or it’s full correct name Endometriosis, pronounced ‘En – doe – me – tree – Osis’ is a long term condition where the lining of the womb is found outside of the womb, affecting those of child bearing age. 

You can find the symptoms by clicking Here


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‘Congratulations – Lucy you’re pregnant?’ No, No I’m not Josh. ‘I just look like it’ 😳. A recent conversation with a male family friend. The words every woman {who’s not heavily pregnant} dreads hearing! 

I won’t lie, I went home & cried a little after that. Who wouldn’t? I’d had my doubts about leaving the house anyway but knew it wouldn’t be fair to keep Alexander in doors on such a beautiful day. 

Looking back it all started when I was 15 years old. My best friend at the time called our landline phone to arrange a sleepover & I was doubled up in pain on a chair in the hall. My mum picked me up some pain relief & off I went bloated tummy & all – too embarrassed to wear my new fitted PJs in front of friends. 

Entering adulthood, the majority of my University years were spent in & out of hospital via & A&E & outpatient appointments for tests/scans/ops. 

Little did I know at the time I was battling with my Endo Demons. I was so young & felt so alone, worried. Did my friends think me a hypochondriac? What was wrong with me? What was causing this chronic pain? 

Why couldn’t I have the energy my friends did? Why couldn’t I wear the bodycon dresses my friends did? Why was my tummy bloated despite not having even eaten yet? 


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It’s been incorrectly diagnosed as a number of conditions over the years. IBS, Gluten ‘intolerance’, ‘heavy periods’. Each ‘investigation’ left me feeling more & more frustrated. As time went on I lost hope/just learned to live with it & the baggy clothes I needed to get me through. 


Me during a recent flare up. I’m a size 10. 

In January 2016 we found out we were expecting baby Alexander. Other than the usual morning nausea, tiredness and third trimester heartburn I felt great throughout pregnancy.  My OH joked that I was nicer pregnant than not! 

This was all apart from this one time my hubby attempted to pinch a McDonald’s Fry from the bottom of the drive thru bag. You do NOT take a pregnant lady’s food, I repeat! 

The PMT monster had evidently vanished! Where is my wife my OH would Day!! It was during this time my ‘Endo’ symptoms completely disappeared. 


Me on a ‘good day’. 

Alexander was born September 2016 & I decided to exclusively Breast Feed. I continued for 9m symptom free, the bloating had gone & I started to feel like a stronger, better version of me. That was soon to end. Within months of Alexander turning one, the symptoms came back, worse than ever. I had forgotten how painful it was & recall crying in pain whilst getting Alexander ready for bed one night. Luckily I had some old maternity clothes stored away to wear during this flare up but I felt scared – I was a mother now. What was this? 

The next day I woke up & booked an appointment to see my GP once again. I started to join the dots. The symptoms had eased during pregnancy. My mum had mentioned suffering from Endo in her youth. Was this hormonal? Was there a connection? 

 It was time to get some answers & I finally did. I pushed & pushed. 

You can read about diagnosis & treatments Here

I often wear ‘baggy’ clothes in case I’m having a ‘bad day’ . However at 5’1 this can often make me look heavier than I actually am & affect my confidence in another way. 

Smock dresses are not really the answer when you are naturally quite busty so I have to choose clothes wisely. 

The relief to finally have a diagnosis & have answers. To feel hopeful, feel more in control. 


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It took me over a decade to get a diagnosis. It takes the average woman 8/9 years. There is no cure. 


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So why am I sharing this with you? I’ve begun to share more with you as times gone on & if I’m showing you the good stuff I also want to you to see the not so good. To raise awareness – to let anyone suffering know they are not alone. Remember 1 in 10. 

My coping mechanisms include cardio 3/4 times a week, feminine heat patches available from most pharmacies & large Home Bargains stores, peppermint tea, hot soaks if all else fails there is always chocolate! 

It’s a case of reminding myself I’ve got this. A little self love goes a long way. 

Do you suffer or know anyone that does? 

Until next time, Love Lucy X 

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3 Comments

  1. June 10, 2018 / 9:01 am

    Amazing article Lucy, so sorry you suffer with this condition. Big hugs and well done for getting out there and raising awareness. Amy @littlehouseinlondon xx

    • itslucy
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      June 10, 2018 / 9:02 am

      Thanks sweetheart xx

  2. Karen Clark
    April 6, 2019 / 3:19 pm

    Hi Lucy I also suffer with the same thing mine has stopped me having children and five attempts at ivf also without success so I totally understand its so cruel and painful and I don’t think people understand how bad it can be people used to say we all get cramp pull yourself together I hated those people they have no clue my hot water bottle is my best friend and lots of hot baths and cake lots of cake. Sending lots of love Karen xx

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