OK, I’m just going to get to the point here. Sometimes, okay a lot of time lately this little app has got me feeling like I’m just not good enough. I feel like I don’t belong on there anymore. Like I sometimes need to escape from what used to be my escapism.
A few days back I had 3 days social media free. So what I hear you say? For someone that sets their alarm to post during ‘peak time’ of a morning to post before a long day at the office and spends possibly up to 3 + hours a day (I know right) on three different Instagram accounts it’s kind of a big deal. I felt liberated & dare I say it, felt more like the old me! I texted friends I hadn’t spoken to in a while, rang my mum, and spent more time outdoors.
I never set out to become a ‘blogger’ or ‘content creator’ (gosh these descriptions do make me cringe) it just kind of happened. With my sometimes ‘shy when you first meet me’ exterior, really daft scouse sense of humour & love of pink and all things quirky, I felt like I had a place here. Like people got me & liked what I like.
I want to highlight how fortunate I am that I have met some amazing people on the gram, on the whole this little community is incredible. Over this last year or so I have even been lucky enough to call it a second job however it isn’t all fancy brunches, candles and make up samples.
Recently I feel as though I have been transported back to the High School playground. Everywhere I seem to look there are cliques or groups who give off the ‘you can’t sit with us’ vibe. These groups are close knit and stick together – reposting and shouting each other out. The first ones to comment on each other’s posts. Why even follow others? Where’s the social to your media?
I get we all have good friends on here (I don’t know what I would do without Amy – @littlehouseinlondon). I have also made an amazing local group of Liverpool friends, however I speak to them via whatsapp and in person, not just via Instagram.
Something else I have never understood is why do people feel the need to categorise accounts and get judgey too? A blogger once made me feel so inadequate because I was a just ‘house account’ in her eyes. Hold on a moment – there is a person behind that page, and one you have met – yep even that didn’t win her over.
Interiors? Mums? Fashion? All of those things are relevant to me – just because I mainly post images of us in my home (as I said I don’t get out much), doesn’t mean I can’t raise my opinion on breast feeding or potty training. Just because I am not a travel blogger it doesn’t mean I can’t post pictures of my latest vacation.
Post what you love, it’s YOUR account.
Anyway I have said my piece. So what I am going to do about it? Make some changes I think. I am just going to enjoy it, and if that joy ceases, click right out of the APP. It’s only Instagram.
I will unfollow accounts that make me feel rubbish and find new ones that enhance my time on social media & inspire me to be the best version of me.
Can you relate? To anyone that feels the same please know you aren’t alone. And you know what? You CAN sit with me.
Love Lucy X